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“How did you coping-up so damn well?” A closest friend of mine was asking me this question the other day.

“Well, I give time time.” I answered.

“What do you mean giving time time?”

“I am still processing – to begin with. I’d be lied if I told you that it was easy-peasy. It’s not. But this is the new normal. I am re-calibrating.”

There were countless times when the question “why” keeps re-surfacing, but rather than finding the answers, I immediately shifted my mind to the facts which has happened. Kalau kata orang jaman dulu, nasinya sudah jadi bubur. What more can we do? Might as well telen aja dah buburnya. Then when the feeling of disgust hits, I am somehow feel lighter. As weird as it may sound, it helps a lot.

I have made my decision, though one-sided – considering all the facts and how it was delivered, but the voice in my heart keeps re-assuring me that it is the right and best one.

I holds on to Bos Besar more than ever. The only and safest place where I could pour all these pains. My source of strength, my faithful companion, which I know for sure won’t leave nor forsaken me: the apple of His eyes.

I am still feeling low at times, but I tried to distract it by developing this new website so I can channel them all here. I created my feel-good sub folder too, so I can still cherish good things that happened to me despite this pruning season of mine.

I am doing it one at a time. I am giving time time.